October 8th, 2016
Dear Hayley and Samantha,
It has been years, YEARS since I last wrote a letter to you. "They" always say time goes faster than you know it. There's a country song by Kenny Chesney "Don't Blink" and part of the chorus goes "Don't blink. You just might miss your babies growing like mine did".....
Sammi, you just turned eight and Hayley is turning ten in a few short weeks. You are both growing into these amazing young women. Gone are the babies. Gone are the precocious toddlers. Gone are the excited pre-schoolers. All of those moments went so very, very fast - even those that felt like they would never pass (like the sleepless baby nights).
I have so many sweet memories of you guys and the things you have done but my single biggest fear is forgetting things. Things that warmed my heart when they happened but have since been moved off and out of my instant recall rolodex. And I think to myself, I don't want to forget anything. I don't want to forget even one of those amazing memories.
So that's why I need your help. I need both of you to help remember these fun things, these crazy things, these awesome things, these silly things, and sometimes yes, these sad things. Everyone remembers things slightly different and it's always amazing to hear things recounted by different people. I hope that the stories Momma loves the most are some of the stories you both love the most also. I hope there are stories you love the most that you keep close in your mind for the rest of your lives.
I am going to try harder to write down more of these stories when they happen so we can all read them again someday and even if we don't carry it as an instant recall, can look on them with fondness.
You see, whether we like it or not, we all have to blink.
I am so very, very proud of the beautiful people you both are. I am proud of your giving, loving spirits. I am proud that you are sensitive to others and have hearts as big as the whole wide world. I am proud that you are beautiful inside, the single place that counts the most.
I love you both more than you will ever know. Someday, if you have children of your own, you will know this crushing love that a parent feels for their child. It is unlike anything you can ever imagine - so sweet and tender and sometimes so frustrating.
I love you to pieces,