January 31, 2009
My Dearest Hayley,
It has been awhile since I last wrote you a note and I just can't believe how quickly time has gone. When I wrote you your first note before you were ever born I had no idea how much love a heart could fill with. Once you were here I knew that I needed to write you letters as often as I could, not because I would ever forget how much I loved you but because I want one day to fill a book for you so that you too may look back and know how very much you are loved.
Maybe it's just that I am so emotional about it but I can't even begin to describe just how much I love you. You will hear there are different types of love, love for your family, love for your significant other, but you will never really know how deep love is until you have children and I hope that someday you get to experience that.
You are twenty seven months old. In the last twenty seven months you have amazed us with your beauty, your lively personality, and yes, your love. One day you stood up and said to me out of the blue "Mommy, I love you soooo much." You know what Hayley? Mommy loves you soooo much too.
You just love your baby sister and I am so very happy to see that. You kiss her all the time and you ask to hold her all the time too. When she was a tiny baby it was much easier- now she weighs almost half what you weigh and she wiggles around quite a bit but that doesn't deter you! You are such a good helper with Sam, you kiss her all the time and help us give her the tooty when she needs it. Your baby sister looks at you with adoring eyes and she always will.
I will tell you, it is tough to be the big sister. Sometimes you are expected to do more and be more because you are a role model for your baby sister. She will look up to you and follow you around, even at times that you wish she would just leave you alone. Remember that she just adores you. I will tell you the same thing I told Sam in her letter, sisters are God's way of making sure you will always have a best friend. Your other friends in life will come and go but your sister will always be there for you.
I want you to know that everything I do is for you. I work hard so that you can do all the fun things that Mommy got to do in her life, plus more. I sometimes have to make hard decisions but when I make them I do them with your best interest in mind. You won't always agree with me and I know that. Maybe one day you will understand why Mommies do what they do- we do it because we just love you so much.
It has been a blink of an eye and you are already twenty seven months old. I am trying not to blink anymore, before I now it you will be sixteen, and then you will be graduating college, getting married, becoming a mommy yourself. I write this letter to you through tears, tears of gratitude that I was trusted enough to become your Mommy and that I was blessed enough to have the opportunity to raise you and watch you grow up.
I love you my big girl.
Love, Mommy
Awe, will you stop making me cry!Runny mascara is not a good look for night shift!
Posted by: Mrs M | January 31, 2009 at 08:14 PM
Ahh, that's so sweet! I was the big sister in my family, and it definitely is nice to be thought of.
Posted by: Crys | February 02, 2009 at 10:08 AM