Dear Samantha

January 31,2009

Dear Samantha,

I don't get to write you love notes as often as I would like but I want you to know that it is because right now I am taking advantage of every opportunity I can to snuggle you. You are growing so quickly and that little tiny baby that made a fierce entrance is long gone. I can already barely remember what it was like when you weighed just five pounds and were so tiny you fit in the cup of your Dada's hand.

I think that you and I share a truly special bond. You just love to sleep with Mommy- in my arms, in my bed, on my shoulder. And knowing that I don't plan to have any more babies I just want to spend every single minute that I can with you. You will always be my baby girl even when you grow up. I will try not to treat you like a baby but if there are times that you think I don't understand you and don't treat you like a grown up maybe you will someday know why.

This week we switched you to formula and all of a sudden we are meeting the real baby Sam. You are such a happy child- and I am just so glad to see the transformation. You are smiling all the time- even in the dark in the middle of the night when you are supposed to be sleeping! And we can't help it, when you smile at us we have to smile back because your smile is so beautiful and we are just so happy to see it.

You are going to roll over any day now. I know once you start rolling it will be the beginning of your mobility and soon I will be chasing you to grab some snuggle time. While I can't wait to see you become a beautiful young woman I also can't stand the thought of losing my little baby.

You just love your sister and she so loves you too. Remember that. There will be a time when you both are likely competitive, maybe you won't want to be around each other but that time will pass and one day you will truly know how important a sister's love is. Sisters are God's way of making sure you have a best friend around for your whole entire life. Other friends will come and go but your sister will always be your sister. You don't always have to agree with her but I just know that you girls will always love each other. I am so happy that you have each other. She wants to hold you all the time and she is fiercely protective of you whenever strangers come near. She says "Don't toucha baby Sam" and she means it. I know someday you will protect her too.

I look at you and I see many of my features. We still don't know what color your eyes are going to be but regardless you are a beautiful child. We call you "Peanut", mostly because when you were born you were just a tiny little peanut but funny thing, Peanut used to be Mommy's nickname too!

I want you to know that I love you with my whole heart. Everything I do is really for you, even if there will be a day that you don't think so. I work so that you may experience all of the things I got to experience as a child, and more. I sometimes make tough decisions but I always make the ones that I think will be best for you. Sometimes I will discipline you and I know you won't want to hear that I do it because I love you, but it's true.

I am looking at you right now as I type this and I can barely see through my tears. We have been so blessed and you are so very loved. Always remember that my baby girl.

Love, Mommy

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[Mrs M]

Jenn - Crying with you hon, you always write the most beautiful letters.